I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue

Confession 25
You are my boyfriend of so many years, so tell me why do I dream about him at least once a week? They are always so vivid and crazy and full of passion, the dream I had last night we kissed and kissed and kissed. You have not kissed me in over a year. I used to dream about you....

Confession 26
That moment, that one moment where you and I finds the exact same thing so incredibly funny that we laugh and laugh and laugh until we can barely breathe, like finding something on a movie and rewinding it a million times and barely stopping ourselves from peeing our pants. In that moment I can believe again I can spend my life with you.

Confession 27
You are such an asshole, you ditch me for your dumb friends. I know what you are doing you make plans with me and then they call and you break your plans with me so that they know you are in control of the relationship and that I do not control you in anyway. But it was our first date night in a while. I needed it.

Confession 28
When I tell you I am in physical pain you totally just brush me off like it is nothing. HELP ME! you are the one in training to be and RN why can't you tell me what is wrong when you know I just can't afford another Dr. visit?

Confession 29
People think you are abusive. I think it is funny. You are abusive. But little do they know I abuse you too.

Confession 30
I almost bought this absolutely beautiful CZ engagement and wedding band set from Avon. It was $30 for the pair and I wanted to wear it and pretend we were engaged. We will never be engaged but that is what I wanted for the style and size of stone and band. I couldn't buy it though, because it was fake, I know it was fake, fake like this relationship that is going no where.