The longest confessional

Since this Girlfriend took the time to type all this out I am going to give her one whole post to herself. KEEP YOUR HEAD UP GIRL!

Confession15
Man oh Man you really are a piece of work. You are something else. How did I ever get so freaking lucky? Other people get to win the lottery, I got the world's worst Boyfriend.
FIRST the thing that is literally killing our relationship. Your addiction to PORN. It is gross. IS IT NORMAL???? I do not know because I sure as hell do not think it is. I think it is gross perverted and nasty. I think a grown man in his 20's who has a girlfriend should not be looking at Porn. I think you should stop, I want you to stop, you should stop because it makes me feel nasty disrespected and like I am dating a humongous pervert. Seriously what is wrong with you? Is normal good clean sex not good enough. Obviously not since you choose to watch Nasty porn and wank off everyday. Yeah and it is not like I can go around asking random people if their boyfriends/husbands watch computer porno and if it is normal. So I guess I have no clue if it is normal, but I know I need you to stop, and you won't....
SECOND, honey I think you are turning into an Alky. You have blown me off on more than one occasion to drink, you cannot go one week without drinking. You have been drinking since you were 15, and I really do not see how it is going to stop in the near future.
GOD I just do not know. We have been together for SIX years, I do not remember knowing all these things about you for the first five years. But this last year, the fights, finding out your DIRTY lil secrets, this last year has killed me. This last year has made me lose so much respect for you and hate you somedays. How did we get like this? How I just don't understand. I believed with all my heart you were the one I wanted to build a life with, I believed I found the man that had fixed my heart and accepted by quirky uniqueness. I just feel like I have no idea who you have turned into anymore. Who are you? You are not the man that asked me out. You are not the man that has let me see his tears and his fears and vunerabilities. I hate who you have become. This Jerk, this tight ass UNFUN Addicted to Porn and booze and GOD knows what else.
You have broken me. You literally have made it so I never want to love another man again. I would rather die alone then have to go through this with another person. I am so afraid that if I left you and got close to another man he would be just like you. No one deserves the kind of lover that you are.
I wish one of us would put me out of my misery.